Glass of Water

Last Friday, right after my last class, I went to a mall with a friend. As we got inside a jeepney along Taft Ave., I immediately got a major headache, as if my head was being cracked open. Like I usually do, and since my companion told me to apply greater pain to my head, I hit my head against the "wall" of the PUJ and my hand against my head. Surprisingly, both personal techniques didn't work. I also tried diaphragm breathing to suffice myself with greater oxygen intake, but it didn't work, too.

So I thought, maybe inhaling too much polluted air from Metro Manila is killing my neurons; where all I can do is wait 'till I get to a "less polluted" place, like the mall. But getting inside the mall didn't help me with my suffering, but drinking water did a little magic with my brain-torturing, literally, headache.

On our way back home, I was again exposed to the air pollution haven, and so was my headache. During that time, I just didn't tell my friend, I really wanted to cry because of the unbearable pain, but it would just be too humiliating to do so. When we're about to take our dinner, I tried vomiting but nothing came out, and nothing good happened either. I lost my sense of taste, I can't even taste the soda I was drinking. But drinking the soda and my handy paracetamol made me so happy, it made the headache go bye-bye forever.

I did a little research and found out that dehydration is one of the biggest of the universal migraine triggers. The fact that more 70% of our body is composed of water, then we should have an idea how important water is for our body. Biological reactions also occur in aqueous medium, just so you know. So, by what mechanisms can dehydration or lack of water trigger migraine? The answer? Here you go:

1. Our nerves send signals to control every part of our body. This is via tiny water pathways. Lack of water thickens the fluid in these nerves, thus distorting the signals to be sent out. These distorted signals can be migraine triggers.

2. Toxins are carried away from cells via water. Lack of water cause toxins to build up, thus causing inflammation to nerves. These inflamed nerves can be migraine triggers.

3. Water, as a vital transport system, plays an active role in the biological processes. Lack of water may cause interference in these activities, thus may also cause lack of energy to power cell pumps. This may overwhelm neurons in the brain, which may be migraine triggers.

Scared of losin' all the time

He wrote it in a letter, he was a friend of mine

He heard you could see your future

Inside a glass of water with ripples and the lines

And he asked, "Will I see heaven in mine?"

-Glass of Water, Coldplay

Now, we all know the importance of drinking at least 6-8 glasses of water a day! Everyone needs to replace the water lost from their daily activities. Sounds simple, eh? Just a healthy way to keep that evil migraine away.

A glass of water a day, keeps the migraine away! The real thing, not the song, k?

To Be Uploaded!

Since I feel like getting the artist in me back into action (lol whut?), I'll be photoshop-ing a header image and a signature image for my dear lovey dovey readers. Two nights ago, I already thought of my online signature, and I am just waiting for the weekend to make it digital. However, I got no idea for the header yet.

Honestly, I'm kinda excited to get a touch of my mouse ('coz I use my desktop computer for photoshop-ing) and to get a sight of my PS interface. You may not see it, but can you imagine my face being excited for new-look updates for my online diary? Well, I can't. Ha ha. 'Coz it's just a poker face and all that.

Anyway, something just crossed my mind. Quite some time ago, I posted a blog, titled SOON, and it's almost the end of the world and I haven't posted that thing I was talking about. Anyway, hope I can get to it soon, real soon.

Keeps Me Alive

Lately, I'm having sleepless difficult nights thinking about things I cannot learn to forget. It is true that learning makes things easier to comprehend, but so does complexity is to set its pace along with the quantity of what we are to know. I think that knowing too much just makes your life more complicated as compared to how it was before. Sorry, but this is just for my point of view based on how I am feeling right now.

The thought of you alone keeps me awake, now everything else I am bound to know keeps me ecstatic. Just like a gallon of ecstasy flowing in my veins, keeping me alive from a comatose, with a score of 3 in a coma scale.

I wish I never knew some things from the start, 'coz in the end, it'll only keep me hurting knowing more about the things I think I should know, but I feel that I don't want to know. I hope this fucking world, so are us, can just shut up and make everyone live happily ever after. The end.

Self-Worth

Never gonna give you up,

Never gonna let you down

Never gonna run around

And desert you.

Never gonna make you cry,

Never gonna say goodbye

Never gonna tell a lie

And hurt you.

People cannot be always there for you, to help you stand up from downfalls and to suffice you with the strength you need. Even during the hardest times in your life, as much as people want to help you and as much as they love you, you just got to accept that there will always be times when you got to learn to stand up on your own and depend only on yourself because the greatest things your friends could offer you are support and guidance.

You can't be dependent on these people all the time, 'coz just like you, they're living their own lives, too, along with their own personal problems as well. So don't never let trivial things hinder you from living your life to the fullest. Instead, see it as a perfect chance for self-reflection, and to discover your strength and self-worth as well. Remember, not only you is suffering, everyone has their own sufferings, too, even greater than what you're experiencing. Just never give up!

P.S. This message is actually for a dear friend. I love you! Just want to let you know that I'll always be here for you, no matter what troubles you are facing (to face).

Opinions and Complexity

Hey! What do you think you're doing right now? Reading this piece of shit, eh? Well, this whole thing I own is really just some shit, plain and ordinary shit. Wanna know why? It's based on what a friend use to tell me.

A friend once told me, "Opinions don't matter," but why do you we take interest in reading blogs, even the status updates? Because I believe that opinions may be good references of facts. However, according to my Comm I professor, facts can either be true or false. Moreover, one needs great resources and references to come up with a good paper. Hence, I view opinions as somewhat words of importance, too, but not literally of influence. Rather, opinions are better to be heard but not to be totally affected of.

It is true that what people think and say about you do not matter, rather, it's a matter of self-reliability and self-reflection. You just got to know and discover things for yourself and for your own good as well. But then, opinions will always follow you, so be careful and mindful enough 'coz wrong facts may always be present to deceive you.

Just so you know, everything I wrote down here is only based on my opinion. Probably not worth reading, but still, hope you learned something from my blabbering.

Exposé

Say whatever you want to say. Call me names if that's what your mind tells you to. Bully me to your heart's content. But I'm enjoying things I do just as much as you enjoy whatever it is you like to do. What you'll be reading is something that you may be first time knowing about Ren. That is if you don't know me well. Blah blah blah.

Moe moe kyun~ - sorry, but I don't really know what it means. I just heard it somewhere. Feel free to use it if you desire to.

So, I just "finished" reading a manga, well, at least up to its updated chapter. Call me an otaku, I don't really care, I'll even take it as a compliment, even it literally stands for "loser". Anyway, the manga is titled Kaichou Wa Maid-Sama which means "President is a Maid!" (The otaku type of maid, that is.) The manga is still ongoing, what I meant by "finished reading it" is that I finished reading up to the latest chapter that is available online. I do not plan to give a review of the manga, but I am only here to express my heart's desire.

Since I have this burning desire for the male lead character, Usui Takumi, my friend told me to blog about it, since I'm always bugging him with my non-stop messages of "Kinikilig ako". And eventually, I really ended up in doing so. As much as I don't want to tolerate my otaku side anymore, but the pleasure of reading this thing as a waste of time, rather a past time - as a friend will tell me to, is really overwhelming. I must say, I cannot express how highly "motivated" I am to be reading this shit involving Usui. As much as I despise imagining myself as a fan-girl of the fast disseminating _-Pop epidemic, I couldn't resist from being a fan-girl of this manga, rather, of Usui.

You may now kill me as I will be revealing my greatest fantasies, as you may not be able to take everything as part of reality. I know he is only a fictional character, but he is just admirable all over. I am not judging this from how he looks (as anime characters mostly look like everyone of their kind), but I am saying this from how I see him through his character and actions. Keeping his cool at all times, being persistent with the "demon" girl he likes, sacrificing everything he has for his happiness, fighting for what he desires and feels right for himself and his love one, etc etc. I know things like those are to good to be a part of reality as we view reality in a shallow point of view. Long ago, I often thought of "I wish to meet the Usui of my life." But the truth is, everyone can be like how I view Usui, everyone of us may have or will have to experience such things as we live life as grown-ups. Being responsible of your actions is part of growing up anyway.

Estrogen Level-Up

Estrogen hormone

Estrogen is the mother of all female hormones, they say. Girls, it is the hormone responsible for your growing chest, just so you know. As a female approaches her menopausal stage, so as her estrogen level starts to decline. As young hippie females, we may still not feel the importance and function of this hormone, but low estrogen levels may cause risk for a host of unpleasant, even health-threatening, conditions. These conditions are:

-Osteoporosis and bone loss

-Increased LDL (the "bad" cholesterol) and decreased HDL (the "good" cholesterol)

-Hair loss

-Weight gain (So is that why most women are fat when they're aged 40 and above?)

-Low blood pressure

-Fatigue

-Sore joints and muscles

-Increase in allergies

-Gastrointestinal disturbances (including indigestion, flatulence, bloating)

-Depression

-Anxiety

-Irritability (So that's why most moms are naggers and easily irritated)

-Insomnia

-Memory loss

-Difficulty in concentrating

Luckily, there are natural ways to elevate, and to avoid the declining of, the estrogen levels in the body. There are artificial ways, too, such as capsules and dietary supplements, but I'd rather go for the healthy and safe living.

To start with, let's go to the proper diet first. Low-carb diet which is mineral-rich with good sources of protein and zinc is a perfect way to increase the estrogen levels.

Yum! It actually looks like grilled camote cue.

Here is a list of estrogen-rich foods you and your... would be happy to eat.

Beans/legumes: black-eyed peas (cow peas), lentils, lima beans, soybeans, soybean sprouts, red beans and split peas

Fruits: papaya, plums, apple, cherries, raspberries, dates and pomegranates

Grains: oats, brown rice and wheat

Herbs and spices: clover, garlic, licorice, parsley and sage

Seeds: alfalfa, anise, flax, fennel, pumpkin, sesame and sunflower

Veggies: beets, carrots, celery, cucumbers, eggplant, pepper, potatoes, tomatoes and yams

Milk, eggs, all dairy and non-organic meats should also be avoided.

But there are also foods which may reduce the estrogen levels. These foods may be good to those suffering from breast cancer and ovarian cysts, which can be exacerbated by the estrogen. These foods are:

Fruits: berries, citrus, figs, grapes, melons, pears and pineapple

Grains: buckwheat, tapioca, white rice and white flour

Veggies: broccoli, cabbage, corn, green beans, onions and squash

Aside from eating a healthy diet, a balance endocrine system (our body's system for regulating hormones) can be achieve through the help of yoga.

Yoga. Kim Chiu does this, but why... No comment.

As for those who aim to develop their chest, other exercises such as the push-up and inclined bench press can help in developing the pectoral muscles thus pushing your breasts forward. Doing push-ups, instead of wearing them, is a healthier way to give those breasts some boost.

I said Push-up not Push-up bras

Inclined Bench Press

Daylight-Outdoor Look

Choosing the right color of eyeshadow to use is very important, as a wrong color can make you look disastrous instead of beautiful. Eyeshadow color depends on the color of the eyes and the occasion when it is to be used, and sometimes the skin tone as well.

Shades of brown accentuate the eyes for a fresh daylight-outdoor-look. As for people with brown eyes, it may be one of the most common eye colors, but it is versatile when it comes to mix-and-matching with eyeshadow. For people with brown eyes, it is important to take notice of the hue of the eyeshadow to be used. Light brown, peach, tan and other related hues are great for the ordinary-day-outdoors look. If you want to use a darker shade of brown, be sure that it is darker than your eye color so that both your eyes and your eyeshadow can be accentuated by each other.

For morenas, like me, it is best to use a lighter or darker shade of brown than your skin tone. For my case, I use the lighter shade, the one pointed in the photo below. I like using brush better instead of an eyeshadow applicator since it can help you make the light and natural shade. As for the eyeshadow applicator, it is better to use for doing eyeshadow patterns.

Light-brown eyeshadow and brush I use

Use an eyeshadow brush to smudge the eyeshadow over your eyelids, following the shape of your eyes. Also, apply eyeshadow beneath the outermost corner of your eyes (This will have a better effect to those with depressed eye corners.)

Outcome of eyes with the eyeshadow applied

Lastly, to give the final touches, apply a thin layer of mascara, preferably black, to give the the natural look for the eyelashes. It can accentuate and give the eyes a fuller look. You can also apply black or brown eyeliner, I prefer the brown eyeliner though but I didn't have mine at home, but only to the edges of the eyes ('coz applying it to entirely will make your eyes look bigger) - which can also help in giving you that tiger-look eyes.

Final outcome with eyeshadow, mascara and eyeliner

TNL vs TNC

Who ever said that this is not a sexist world?

Kung mayroong blog site ang mga tunay na lalaki,

Click here to visit the TNL blog site!

aba'y tila hindi magpapahuli ang mga kababaihan,

meron ding blog site ang mga tunay na chicks!

Click here to visit the TNC blog site!

When you're dying of boredom and no one else can help out, try what I do. Check 'em out!

Navel To Be Reborn

Your navel may even be sexier than your face.

The navel, or as most of us call it - the belly button, is a scar on the abdomen due to the cutting of the umbilical cord during birth. It may appear as either a protrusion or a depression, which others may regard as an outie or an innie, respectively. I personally believe that an innie navel looks better than an outie (No offense to the outie's out there).

You may disregard your navel as one of the sexiest parts of your body, as it is only a "scar since birth". But the navel can be greatly reborn into something hot and sexy, using adornment that is. It started during the early 1990's when Aerosmith launched a music video of Cryin' with Alicia Silverstone's navel pierced. Addition to her public appearance with the embellished belly button were famous models and celebrities, not to mention Naomi Campbell, with their navels adorned.

This is how a belly button ring looks like.

Adding adornment to your navel, such as the belly button ring, is one way to get it more attractive than any other part of your body. But there are few things to be considered if you're thinking of having your navel pierced. (As I am also thinking of having it adorned.) These tips might help you clear your (my) mind if a belly button ring is what's really best for you and your body.

1. You first need to find a trusted professional body piercer (body piercing salon) and a good belly button ring.

Ouchie! Yeah, it really must hurt that much. But if you like it so much, then pain must not stop you from having it.

2. Be aware that anyone can get an infection from a wound. A belly button piercing is a superficial body piercing and is still considered as a wound. Thus it may still take up to a year to have it healed. Proper piercing aftercare is strongly recommended!

This is some major navel infection from an allergy brought by improper navel care. You wouldn't want anything like this, do you?

3. If you notice that it is completely healed, then you may change you belly button ring according to whatever style you want to show-off in the catwalk.

Let your belly button shine your way to stardom.

And your belly button lives happily ever after. The end!

Hot Pink In the Summer Sun

Wondering what could be hotter than the summer sun? The answer is you! And when I say you, your nails are included.

Sorry for my ugly nails and fingers in the photo above, but I just wanted to show you my Hot Pink coated nails. Hot pink or neon colored nails are great eye catchers that will go pretty well with dark colored swim suits while bathing in the beach under the hot summer sun. With those two combined, you'll be one hot ass of a sexy bitch in the beach. Sexier than Popeye's Olive in bikini. Kidding about Olive. Ha ha ha. Now, don't forget the colorless nail polish as the top coat! As this will give that extra glossy effect to those hot and sexy nails. May or may not be with the sparkling effect, the gloss alone gives your hands the fuller sexy look.

Live In Manila!

So yeah, these are the only pictures we got from Good Charlotte's mall tour in Glorietta (It's in the Philippines, just so you know). I'm not a fangirl of their band, so no fangirling mode here. I like some most of their songs. I'm also hands down for their guitar solo's, especially in the song Like It's Her Birthday. According to their Official Website, the concert will only last for 30 minutes, but hell yeah, it lasted for more than an hour. Honestly, I don't go much to concerts 'coz I don't like the feeling of mingling with the crowd, also the feeling of spending too much money for myself to enjoy such things. I don't even scream, nor raise my hands. On second thought, maybe I will, if there's this undeniably strong peer crowd pressure. But the outside crowd is too boring, they don't even sing nor raise their hands, unlike the other people I've been with to other concerts. And it didn't help in raising the rock spirit of the concert.

From all the songs they played, I only knew seven: Like It's Her Birthday, Girls & Boys, I Don't Wanna Be In Love, I Just Wanna Live, Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous, Hold On, and Sex on the Radio. FYI, I just know those seven songs, not really memorize the lyrics ('coz I'm poor with memorizing lyrics), except for Like It's Her Birthday and Hold On 'coz these two are my personal favorites. Knowing little about them and their songs, still, I enjoyed it. I'll probably regard it as the best or second best from all the concerts I have been to. I just wished after that I had a picture taken with them. Now, I envy Pacquiao more than ever. He's got a picture with them while I don't.

Life-Changing Friday

This is an interview of Rebecca Black as she analyzed her "debut song" Friday. Watch the video to know the true hidden meanings of the song. She looks so serious in the interview, it makes you wanna believe her. Doh. Still needs to do more to change the people's belief about her song. Personally, I still think Friday is stupid even after her explanation. C'mon, it feels like she's only making things up. Ha ha ha.

I'm surprised, too. Friday is not just like any breezy pop song? Well, I think I'd choose Bieber over you. I'm shocked to death knowing that the song came from a really deep and painful place. Is this sarcasm?

Anyway, consumerism, according to RB, is indicated in the line "Gotta have my bowl, gotta have cereal." It is not I gotta have my bowl, it is I GOTTA HAVE my bowl. And same goes for her cereals. She's teaching us how to use word stresses. Without these two, we're left off as hungry bitches.

Also, American foreign policy is in the line "Kickin' in the front seat, sittin' in the back seat" meaning she needs to make a choice between the two seats, representing Afghanistan and Iraq. Now, how did that happen? For a couple of short lines, you got Afghanistan and Iraq in your song already? The lines didn't even have any useful adjectives to resemble the two countries.

Lastly, economic stability in the line "Everybody's looking forward to the weekend," weekend, according to her, is a metaphor for financial stability. I don't see anything about the broken promises in the current generation and society in that line. As for the metaphor, does she mean that the weekend is so much related to partying that you need to have money for these parties? Well, not everyone sees it that way.

Oh, yeah! One more thing. It's not "Partyin' Partyin' Yeah!" It's "Partyin'... Partyin'... Ye...ah?" See the difference? So yeah, does she have to spell it out for us? Learn to read between the lines. Friday's such a nice song, it can even change our lives, as well as our point of views in life. Not. So much for mocking. Gotta have my bowl of cereals now. Teeheehee. Ciao~

Books

If this happens, we'll all be Laude standing and running for honors. Teeheehee~

UPDATES!

Since I was awake 'till 5am last night and I wouldn't want to waste the fulfillment of what I did, I'll share what I did. No, it's not about my self-centered side nor is it my vanity. I just updated my Official BlogSite and Twitter. And I'm blogging right now since I want you to be updated too! Even though I know that you wouldn't really care about whatever I do with my life.

For my Blog, new title, new description, new background, updated Home page and updated Visit Me page. You guys just wait for more 'till I give in all my effort for this site, as long as my bones don't get lazy. As for my Twitter, new background image. Now, I just noticed that I'm turning so gay lately that almost all of my web accounts have touches of pink. Even my nails are neon pink. How gay is that? Now, please don't hate me for being gay, as gay is only equal to happy.

WednesDate ♥

Me me me so excited. Me so excited... Partyin' Partyin' Yeah! Fun, fun, fun, fun..... This is gonna be so fly, like Peter Pan on G6 off to the sky.

I'm excited for Rebecca Black's Good Charlotte's mall tour this Wednesday. I swear I'll kill myself if I wouldn't be able to see and rock with them. It'll only last for once-in-a-lifetime-blissful 30 fucking minutes of my life. But before I (we) go there, pesto and fruit smoothies first! Crepes for dessert and chips to munch with as time will fly faster than we'll know it. I'm having this craving for all of these yummies already. All of my savings will go to food again, and all of those food will go to my big, flabby tummy. But it's alright, as I will get to spend that rocking night with someone who can forever rock my tiny, itsy bitsy, dramatic world.

After this, back to saving money, though I don't really know where I can get money during the summer break. Next event, beach with my bitches girlies. Coming soon, night out with my sluts loveys. Any more events you want me to join you? Call me, beep me, if you wanna reach me...

WebcamWhoring

There are times when my vanity strikes and I go all webcamwhoring with my friends. I'll bug them with "Webcam tayo dali!" You now see what boredom does to me. These photos are webcam print screens from a webcam session with someone. They were taken at around 3 o'clock in the morning. We're night persons, we really are. I wasn't able to take photos of the person I was chatting with, my best friend, since the person's webcam is turned upside down. I wouldn't want to post anything like that since I am a little obsessive-compulsive. And besides, I was the one who wanted to use the webcam, not my friend. What my friend really wanted to do is a voice call, but my net sucks big time that I can't hear any internet-related sounds, e.g. Y!M and FB chat notifications, even YouTube videos, and voice calls on Y!M. So there you have it, Ren gone camwhoring. Wait 'till a worse part of my vanity strikes me, where I'll find an online friend and we'll have a voice chat just for me to sing. I love my friends who are always more than willing to bear with my insanity vanity.

Horny Pigs: Gives You Hell

I was browsing the net 'till I came across this website, Interesting Facts. There are exactly 327 random facts listed there when I visited it, I don't know if it updates its facts list or if it is even reliable. I did get a little doubtful when I read this:

21. A dragonfly has a lifespan of 24 hours.

Is it just me not knowing this or the website's really wrong? I know mayflies have 24-hour lifespan, even less, but dragonflies? It's the first time I heard of it. Or maybe I just forgot everything I learned from our Invertebrate Zoology class? I'd be a loser of a biologist if that's really the case here. Anyway, one thing that really caught my purr-y attention is this:

37. A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes.

I don't dislike pigs, I actually kinda like them. And I never knew I'll like them more because of this. There were also a lot of responses in Yahoo! Answers regarding this disturbing fact. One girl even asked if you'd like to be a pig because of it's "admirable" talent, it's long-lasting orgasm for this case. Now, my answer is this: That would be great to have an orgasm like that, for horny people at least, but doesn't that 30 minutes span of orgasmic pleasure gives you hell at the same time? A regular orgasm gives you "heaven" but tires you at the same time, don't you agree?Now, wanting a 30-minute span of time in "heaven" will kill the pleasure out of you. You'd be the wimpiest kid in the town after that. I'm not saying I have done it before, this is just my plain... I-M-A-G-I-N-A-T-I-O-N.

Sheez. I'm not even an expert in this kind of thing yet I'm blogging about this. Let's just say, I'm a really really curious biologist, so no malice. Anyway, pigs are still lucky for this, but for their other acts, they may be not. It's true, everyone has something they can uniquely be proud of, even pigs do!

Better Think Of Your Future

I just wanna live

Don't really care about the things that they say

Don't really care about what happens to me

I just wanna live

Stop your messing around boy

Better think of your future

Better make some good plans boy

Said every one of my teachers

Look out better play it safe

You'll never know what hard times will come your way

We say where we're coming from

We've already seen the worst that life can bring

Now we get expect it everywhere that we go

All the things that they say

Yeah, we already know

-I Just Wanna Live, Good Charlotte

Just now, I love my life more than ever. Better think of my future? Now this is what's gonna change my not-so-exciting future. Hoorah! Thanks to Good Charlotte, I'll have something fun to do, aside from the nightlife, for my one week of summer vacation. I saw a poster of Good Charlotte's tour in the Ayala Malls from a billboard in EDSA. I wasn't able to read which Ayala Mall it is, so as I got home, I visited Good Charlotte's official website immediately. So, it's gonna be held at Glorietta Activity Center on April 6, around 6:30 to 7:00 pm. F**k, it's only for 30 minutes. So yeah, you know it already, of course I'm gonna watch them, and I'll die to see them. I know, I know, they're hard rock with a touch of metal, but I love them, their songs actually, even they kinda look like punk or goth, whatever, I don't really care how they look. Like It's Her Birthday and Hold On are personal favorites, just so you know. Now that I'm really decided to go, I just have to find someone who can rock that concert with me. Feels like I'm calling out for you? May be. Teehee. Lalalala~

Renellie

Since I am vain, I wanted to know how popular my first name is. So I googled it. And I came across a website which gives these details about my first name. This is all thanks to PokeMyName.com. At first, I thought it was PokeMonName. Then I asked myself, "Renellie's a Pokemon name?!" Teehee. I guess I'm too blinded by my vanity.

Renellie is the 58,022nd most popular name in the USA. The popularity level of my first name, Renellie, is 1.42 people per million. I think it's lower than average. As of April 01, 2011 03:03 PM (GMT +8), there are 444 people named Renellie in the United States and the number is averagely increasing by 4 people every year. Quite an updated statistics I must say. Though I can't say it's all that reliable.

The sum of the alphabetical order of RENELLIE is 80, which makes it arithmetic buddies with words Undefiled, Congenial, Gullible, Diligent, Eminent, Pious, Bouncy, Eccentric, Funny, Helpful and Relieved. It's funny that I think these words somehow describe me, though I don't know what undefiled means. It's also the first time I came across with the term "arithmetic buddies". Who would want to use that term in our daily conversations anyway? Now this is what I call self-discovery. Teehee.

Sadomasochism

Feels so good being bad

There's no way I'm turning back

Now the pain is my pleasure

Cause nothing could measure

Love is great, love is fine

Out of the box, out of line

The affliction of the feeling

Leaves me wanting more

Cause I may be bad

But I'm perfectly good at it

Sex in the air, I don't care

I love the smell of it

Sticks and stones may break my bones

But chains and whips excite me

-S&M, Rihanna

Bad boys? Bitch? Slut? Have you seen Rihanna's music video for her song S&M? Well, Youtube made it available only to those who have accounts who are 18 years and older. I will not spoil it, so you better watch it. It's kinda cute, well, at least it's colorful.

Anyway, I like sadism and masochism, I might even label myself slightly of a sadist and a masochist. But when these two things are combined, well uh... they become a different thing. Sadism and masochism, often termed as sadomasochism or S&M for short, refers to the attainment of sexual gratification or pleasure from actions inflicting pain (and even humiliation?). This can be achieve with chains and whips just like how the song tells us. This actually has three divisions known as BDSM, stands for bondage and discipline (B&D), dominance and submission (D/S), and sadism and masochism (S&M). For B&D, it can be in either the form of physical or psychological restraint. I'd rather not discuss much details 'coz nor do I is an expert in this kind of field.

I am emotionally unstable so I like hurting myself whenever I am depressed, but not to the point of killing myself. I also have this view in life that inflicting greater but short term pain makes myself feel numb from the lesser but long term pain, in physical terms. Then the thought just crossed my mind, if I like receiving pain (from myself that is) and inflicting pain (to myself and it's not hardcore pain), may be I'll like S&M. Wait 'till I try it, and I'll tell the world how it feels. Nah. I'm just kidding. But who knows, Rihanna's video isn't hardcore as I expected it to be, and so do I as I may not be who you expect me to be. Labo ko lang eh.

I dunno why I tagged this as academics. Oh well, April Fools! Just so you know, this is my 100^th blog entry, and I at least wanted it to be of something worth reading. But I guess I failed. Ha ha ha.