On Ubiquity and Homosexuality

Note: This is a vague poem I made for our Hum integration paper on the theater film Care Divas and the documentary Paper Dolls, both regarding Filipino homosexual caregivers in foreign countries.


Bitch, please. She is one truly proud drag queen.

As I walk across a four-cornered room,
Where everything feels like at its doom;
All I see is an empty space,
Not until I saw a familiar face.

A murky image of you I see,
Whose figure I thought serves as the key;
Pushed me recklessly away from home,
Said you don’t care even if I die alone.

To muster such strength with no ease,
I beseechingly bent down on my knees;
You know that freedom is what I plead,
And acceptance is all that is I need.

Of all the people, why must it be you?
Not everyone treats me wrong like you do.
Of all the love I wish to have,
Time won’t mend this scar I love.

Now, the time has come,
Permanently away from you and home;
I heard no goodbyes for you and I,
Oh, Daddy, why is it that now you cry?


Yey for my first post for this year! :D :D :D

Monsters and Us

Note: This is another journal write-up for my Humanities class. Just a short write-up on my view on monstrosity.

Monsters come in different shapes and sizes, rather different forms, depending on who sees it. For children, monsters are those with terrifying physical attributes, just like Pixar's Monsters Inc. Vampires and werewolves were also considered as monsters before, but not until Stephanie Meyer's Twilight series came into the scene and eventually became teenage girls' new fairytale.

Monster, as defined by the dictionary, is something of wickedness or cruelty, which may be in the form of a threatening force, such that it is believed to may have cause harm to someone. Monsters, as how we see them, are no longer of physical ugliness; hence, they are those who take ugliness deeper inside of them such as a corrupt politician, our terror school professor, our bully classmate, heartless criminals or even our parents - that is for scolding us whenever we least want it to. However, unbeknownst to ourselves, I believe that we all have monsters within ourselves, only we don't see it since we tend not to harm ourselves but only others.

Racism, sexism and discrimination, those are our ways of showing how cruel of a monster we are to the inferior, thus abusing one's power and knowledge, or superiority, itself, are simple forms of monstrosity which will be hard to perish within us. Where we will soon realize that one's happiness may be one's misery, a truly terrifying truth we must learn to accept.

Self-Awareness

Note: This is a journal write-up for my Humanities class. I just wanted to share to my readers the thoughts I have on how important life is.

Dying, a single word, so powerful, it can end all of one's suffering. However, I think most of us will agree that it is indeed easier said than done.

Life may give us all of the surprises, may it either be good or bad, when we least expect it. One moment we're crying, and next, we;'ll be laughing, without even noticing how it happened. Happiness, problems, all of those come and go. We sometimes feel like we're the happiest or maybe the most unfortunate person in the world; but no matter what it is that we are experiencing, let us not forget that we are not the only one suffering from difficulties in life, because somewhere in this planet, there is someone who suffers more than we do. This is actually what I told a good friend of mine when she broke up with her lover.

When life gets tough and we feel like hoping is no longer an option, we tend to get rough with our decisions; and such decisions include dying, rather ending our lives. But what we do not know, or maybe what we actually tend to forget, is that there will always be a rainbow after the rain - that no matter what comes in our way, there will be a moment for us to smile about, and that the other side of the field is greener than where we are standing now - that we tend to focus on the downside of life, thus not even seeing the brighter side of what we have. Let us not forget that surviving and living a dream into reality will give true happiness to ourselves, to our souls, because life is a gift, not just any ordinary gift, but it is the greatest gift ever given to those who deserve it and also for those who need to learn how to value it.