Born That Way

I'm born this way, a free bitch who ought to claim to know myself better, rather best, than anyone else. I maybe the source of "reliable information" in the area, but I like to keep secrets, my secrets, to myself. I may probably be your friend, even your best friend, but what you know about me is not even half-way of who I really am. Even my family doesn't know me well, 'coz only I can define my uniqueness, and I defy to delimit myself only to that.

So... knowing the superficial doesn't grant you any excuses to go flaunt around judging others, as they may seem like a badass bitch running around in town naked. Some people are probably born to be hypocrites, asking people for damn realizations without even realizing those stuff themselves. I don't wanna be like some for-no-good so-called friends who treat you like a clueless baby and strip you naked down to some false facts. I guess some people are born that way, the healthy way to ruin other people's lives since they hesitate to ruin theirs.

Sorry for this post, but I just typed out of random BV thoughts this early in the morning.

"Para sa akin, hindi mo masusukat ang pagmamahal mo sa isang tao kung gaano ka kasaya 'pag kasama mo siya, 'pag andiyan siya. Masusukat mo 'yun kung gaano ka kalungkot kapag wala na siya" (Anonymous, 2011)

Contristati

Cant say I dont love him
Still I cant pretend
That my heart is torn just knowing that Im losing my bestfriend
If its easier said and done
Then someone tell me why
Though I try,
I cant find the words to say goodbye

I could tell him that Im sorry
Hope he’ll understand
He will have to do with someone else
All that we have planned
Id rather him hear the truth
Than hurt him with a lie
So I tried,
But I cant find the words to say goodbye

Now I know
I have to go
Theres no other way
But goodbye is not what I can bring myself to say…

If I told him “see you later”
Then I might be wrong
cause this voice inside is driving me
To find where I belong
I know I must leave her now but everytime I try,
Dont know why,
Ibut I cant find the words to say goodbye…
Dont know why,
I cant find the words to say goodbye….

-Can't Find The Words To Say Goodbye, Nina

So if you think everything's over, think again, pal. I'd rather not consider anything as an ending, rather it's a new beginning; but probably of the same path we took from the very start, since in life, there is no turning back. Dramas of life is collectively a never-ending cycle of stories. Even if you grow tired of it, it'll happen and happen again only with a new twist. If you're reading this now, rather still visiting this site anymore, then this is for you. The song says it all, need I say more?

Check it awt!

http://kikaytrekkie.blogspot.com/2011/07/hathor2s-sigma-giveaway-with-2year.html

HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY, kikay trekkie! More powers to you and your ultimate kikay blog/vlog!

Meme~

As I am not a fan of long-pieces-of-shit reading materials, rereading my blog told me that neither should I be a fan of myself. I have numerous blogs that are long and wordy enough to even make a storyteller fall asleep. Talk about irony. Guess I am no good after all lol

I Cry Real Tears

Every little teardrop
That falls from my eyes
They fall for you
I cry real tears baby
Every little teardrop
That falls from my eyes
They fall for you

You oughta be ashamed of yourself
The way you talk down to me
Didn't anybody ever teach you
To act more respectfully

I'm telling you
That I'm only human too
Don't you realise
Look at my face
What do you see in my eyes
When a part of me just dies?

I cry real tears
I have real fears
I've got a heart that's beating inside
Sometimes it breaks
And when it aches
My eyes cry real tears

You treat me like
You think I'm made of stone
Like when I'm cut I don't bleed
Oh baby
Don't you know that
I'm just flesh and bones
So what do you want from me

I'm telling you
That I'm only human too
Don't you realise
Look at my face
What do you see in my eyes
When a part of me just dies?

I cry real tears
I have real fears
I've got a heart that's beating inside
Sometimes it breaks
And when it aches
My eyes cry real tears

There's something called the golden rule
Someday you'll wished you'd follow it more
You've been a fool
My love is truer than any love you will find
But I'm worth so much more and so is my time

I cry real tears
I have real fears
I've got a heart that's beating inside
Sometimes it breaks
And when it aches
My eyes cry real tears

There's something called the golden rule
Someday you'll wished you'd follow it more
You've been a fool
My love is truer than any love you will find
But I'm worth so much more and so is my time

- I Cry Real Tears, Eternal


The song lyrics says it all, need I to say more?

Was?

I decided to check on this blog since I miss blogging about whatever stuff there is for me to think about. But lately, I've been too busy lazy to talk about what's happening to me, rather there is nothing exciting happening to me.

As of now, nothing's coming out of my erratic mind. There should be at least few things I can write about, like my summer classes, summer night outs, 18th birthday and the like, but everything seems to be empty lately.

If you're thinking that I am emo-ing right now, well, you are wrong. I am actually enjoying my life to the fullest as I can make it. Call me happy-go-lucky, but I love living my life today as today, yesterday as yesterday, and tomorrow as tomorrow. Well, you get my point there. Just for sharing, I actually envy one acquaintance who once told me that he never regretted anything he had done. May that be the case for me, too. In fact, some things are just not worth remembering, so why even have regrets. :) And yes, I know, I am an egoistic bitch, really.

Wow, there's actually something in my mind worth writing after all. And I've used the word actually numerous times for a short shit like this. Anyway, have a great night! Still busy doing important things. Toodles~

P.S. Was is the German for what. And it's the first word that popped out of my mind when I clicked "New Post". Just saying. :P