Love need not to be reciprocated.

I don't know what is wrong with myself, but I am liking again the same person I used to like way back to a couple of years ago. But the feeling seems to be deepened and it may be because we've both grew more mature over the years. However, this bullshit feeling should not even materialize back since the reason I couldn't let the feeling persist back then is still the same reason why I am trying to dematerialize this feeling now. But, love need not be reciprocated, eh? But if I choose this path of unrequitted love, I am only hurting myself more, now that the distance between us is as little as it can be, or so I think it is.

So many ifs and buts in my head right now, but one thing is for sure, I enjoy whatever we are now and will try to make the best out of it. It's more fun to give, eh? But the glorious feeling when receiving it back will always be, of course, non-comparable.

Anywaaaay, to segue from this drama queen aura, I think I'm liking this new "close" friend I have. And it's a really good thing that we've gone closer and closer. Too bad he's a year younger and it's making me think that I am some kind of pedophile, or maybe not since he'll be 18 in no time. You think that you are this kiddo who I am talking about? Hmm.. maybe. :p Nonetheless, I will try my very best to be the nicest bitch to him, since I think that I am not very ate-like to him. Good thing that I'm not bro-zoned.

P.S. Whenever you call, baby, I roll up... I can be your best friend, and you be my homie.

Secret Confession: Ren Not Allowed

I'm really sorry to whoever you are, but I just can't stop myself from blogging this one. Don't worry, I'll try my best not to name anyone, nor give an idea on the sexes of the people involved here. I'm guessing that you won't probably be reading this shit anyway, since no one really cares on what I write.

I got a news just this morning that someone confessed to my really close friend, someone who I treat like as if he/she is my very own child. Just so you guys know, the confession was made in person. One message, great for you, kiddo! Honestly, the confession isn't really that of a big deal, obviously... since it's kind of normal to hear stories from my friend that some people go crushing on him/her - even when my friend just passes along a group of young people by the corridor. Talk about crush ng bayan, eh? Well, actually, the big deal here is that this person told my friend not to tell anyone about the confession, which is kind of normal, but the abnormal part was that the person told my friend to not tell who he/she is especially to Ren!

Did I just see my name up there? Okay, this made me think as if something is not right. Why would this person mention me in such kind of delicate topic? I know my friend and I are close and all that, but why was the secret thing especially a secret for me? Having heard that, some people crossed my mind, and I even thought that it must be someone close to me. Or maybe it's that person I've always teased with my friend lately. If it is not against ethics to name some people, I would, really. Too bad I still value ethics. And too bad my friend doesn't, 'coz if my friend did, I wouldn't probably be partly informed about this weird confession.

Having to know an information this half-cooked, I swear to everyone, including my dog, that I will find out who you are (by myself!!!) through the use of my special powers, behold... my super stalking ability! But don't worry, if your main reason for specifically keeping this secret from me is that you think I'm such a gossip-mouthed bitch, then I shall prove you wrong! With the help of Facebook and Chuwitter, I shall have your name spelled out without a single mistake. Mark my words, you!

P.S. If who I think you are is right, and I think that we are close and that there is a chance that you might be reading this right now, I really prefer if you send me a personal message right now in Facebook and spill the details. I promise not to tell. You know how great of a friend I am to you, and I wouldn't want such secrets between us.

And if we ain't close, just ignore the P.S. message above.

Dedicatedly and desperatedly yours,

fcukyouverymuch